Anticipation and patience

I have disconnected myself from a lot of people in the past 3 months. It has been a rough road but I feel like I have made the right decision. I don't feel as pressured to be a certain way anymore.

A couple of months ago I was losing myself. I was trying to make everyone else happy and forgetting about my own happiness. AS long as I was well liked it didn't matter. Then I had reality hit me in the face hard and it tested the strengths that I had within myself and the people I know. I finally found that I was not being true to myself. And that was not what I had worked so hard on in my past to be.

The pieces of my life have been put back together and I can now face what I had left behind. I am going to slowly start to try to rebuild these relationships that I had lost but this time I know not to change myself. These people did help me out a lot. I love them like sisters but I was trying to be something I will never be.

Sometimes it takes being at the bottom to see the light at the end of the tunnell.