Going through a rough patch

Sometimes you wonder what or how you got into situations that you are in. Why is stuff always happening to us for? I still think that sometimes but the difference now is that I pray for the reasons. We had something absolutley awful happen to us this week. Both of us were very very very upset. At first, we blamed God. I know that is not the right thing to do but it is natural for us. Then we remembered that God does not allow more to happen to us than we can handle. So we prayed on it. GOd answered our prays and while we are still in very bad situation we know that if we continue to pray and allow Him to take over things ARE going to get better. Everything happens for a reason right?

I awoke this morning...

not knowing what exactly to expect. My heart had already belonged to God but today was the day for me to publicly announce it to the world. Now, I have never been baptized. I have never seen anyone get baptized before. This was going to be a brand new experiance for me. I had just found out yesterday that James was going to get baptized with me. That was so awesome. We only get 1 chance to get baptized together and I am so glad that he decided to go with me. This was one of the best things that ever happen to me in my life. I went first and Derik had talked all of us through the baptism before it started. Then the video screen wouldn't go up. It was a little funny because no one could figure out why. So 2 other guys came back and held the screen up while we were getting baptized. Today is a day I will deffanitly remember for the rest of my life. My life is changed now. When I woke up this morning, I had 2 sisters and 1 brother. Now, I have a whole congregation of brothers and sisters that accept us as there own flesh and blood. It was all a little overwheleming because at the end of the sermon, all of us that were baptized were asked to step to the front to recieve our certificates of baptisms. As we were getting those certificates everyone stepped up to us and gave us hugs and congratualted us. We both felt like we belonged. Thanks to all my new found brothers and sisters for making us feel welecome and I hope to get to know all of you better.

Feeling down...

Over these past 3 days I have been pretty sick. It has taken all my energy to wake up and get to work. I get home and I go straight to bed. I have not spent anytime in my Bible and I am so tired when I get home that I can't even get the energy to pray. I am feeling very upset about this but I know God is watching over me. I listen to K-Love everyday on my way to and from work. I just don't want to turn into one of those people that are constantly coming up with excuses on why I am pushing him away. Hopefully I will feel better soon.

A Life-Changing Moment

We went to church again today and we were a little more comfortable today. We both had just gone to the Marriage Retreat and meet a lot of new couples who we got to know a little better. While we were at service today, Pastor Kelly asked us to bow our heads in prayer and asked us to come to the alter for specific reasons. And to be honest, I didn't think I would be one of those people to get up and kneel in front of the whole congregation and ask God for help. Well, while we were praying I got this jolt of emotion. It overcame me and poured over my heart. And I knew that was the Holy Spirit encoraging me to go up to the alter and ask Jesus to help me find my way. I started to cry with emotion and that moment was the best moment I have felt in a long time. I didn't know what to do with myself. So James and I went and kneeled up front and I prayed harder for Him to continue to help me along this journey. I know He will. I will find my way back to Him.

What to do?

I have been at my current job for almost 18 months. From January 2008 until August 2008 I worked 40 hours a week for almost every single week. I fought and fought with my employer to give me the full time status and for all that time they continued to tell me that there weren't any full time postions available. So I told them to cut my hours down to part time hours. 2 weeks after that, my employer came up to me and offered me an assisitant manager position, which was full time. But there was no telling when I would move into that position. So I declined. Then we got a new manager and he was unaware of all of this that had happen. I love our new manager. He is very nice and full of faith, in both what I do and God himself. I feel very blessed to have this manager in my life. But now he keeps pushing me to go full time. And James and I are trying to get pregnant with our 2nd child. (My 1st pregnancy did not go so smoothly. I had to take a leave of absence from my job.) And I would hate to take the full time position and then the very next month have to take a leave of absence because I was so sick. How come things seem to land in your lap at the most inappropriate times. I need to do some praying.

My first prayers...

Well, last night was the first night ever that I have prayed. I wasn't quite sure how to do it but I just put my whole heart into it and I felt Him. This morning, when I woke up I prayed again to Him. When I prayed this morning I asked Him to give me patience. Then I went into my email and had seen that I had 6 emails from the same person. So I randomly picked one of the emails and it just happen to be about patience. To me, that is deffiantley a sign from Him. I hope everyday that goes by I learn more and more from Him.

Tagged by Steph Thanks!

Ok So I was tagged for this picture posting project. Here's how this one works: "Pick your fourth picture file and the fourth picture from that and post it." I pick Randi Jo, Sarah A, and Beth.

This picture is on Easter 2008. At this time we had 3 babies in the family and this is the first time they all got together. I am holding my cousins 6 week old baby boy.

Finding faith In God

James and I have been together for almost 7 years now and not once have we gone to church together. Well, we went for the first time today and I think that both of us are changed for the better. We filled out a guest card when we left and later today they called asking if it would be ok for a visit. We said yes.

Now, usually, when church pleople come by it us all about preaching to us about what we are doing wrong and how we need to better our lives so we were a bit apprehensive at first but we figured why not. What did we have to loose?

Nothing! We gained insight to the best church we have ever stepped foot in and let me tell you it was an eye opening experiance. Everyone was laid back and we felt welcome from the first step onto the property! Never have we been welcome like that. It was so overwhelming!

But now both James and I have accepted Christ as our one and only Savior and we are on our way to knowing Him and His life! We want Him in our lives and we NEED Him in our lives.

Thanks to Randi Jo and Brandon for opening there arms and welcoming us so warmly into their church. Both of us really do appreciate it!

Vacation almost over

So I have done an excellant job at keeping up this blog over our vacation! LOL! We took Carly to the aquarium on Tuesday and she loved it! We will be going back soon. Other than that this week has been very uneventful. Just cleaning the house and relaxing. We did go out to dinner for our anniversary on Tuesday. We had a great time. I still have pictures to put up for that too. We are going to join another family at their church tomorrow and we are really looking foward to it. Hopefully, it will be the church that we have been looking for.

Transition

We finally decided to transition Carly over to her twin bed. It has been sitting in her room for almost 2 months now and she has been sleeping in a pack and play now for almost 3 months. I thought it was going to be a lot harder then it was. She just laid right on down and went right to sleep. She woke up about 20 min. after we laid her down and I went into her room and laid down with her for like 2o min. Then I left and she went right back to sleep. We will see what the night holds for us. Hopefully she will do this good all night.

I am a little agrevatted

I have been trying to follow this presidential election from the time I found out who the candidates were. I am still very unsure of who I am going to vote for but I will vote. I just watch a clip on a website that the person in the clip was discouraging people from voting. Voting is not a decision we make. It isn't one of those things that we wake and say "Oh, well I don't feel like it today." It is our civic DUTY to vote. Just like how it is our DUTY to take care of our children. These people who think that we shouldn't vote need to be exhiled from the country. I know this may seem a little harsh but that is how I feel and I am not about to appoligize for it.