At a crossroad

I find myself at crossroad right now. A fork in the road. I can go left or right but both directions are going to change my life forever. My heart is heavy and has been for quit some time now. I am tired and feel alone. Lonliness has really been showinf its ugly head latley now that I have no vehicle. I am finding myself thinking about what is real in my life. What is fake and what I need to purge out of my life. I know which way I need to go at this fork in the road but I am afraid to go that way.

It is a scary path. One that I have to walk on alone. I never asked for this choice that I have to make. Never wanted to make this choice. But I have too. I have spent many nights latley thinking about my choices and neither one of them I am happy with but I cannot continue to stand still like I have been over the past 4 months. I am not happy with the way things have been going so I am going to start overhauling my life. Some major changes are about to happen. Some of you already know what I am talking about while others of you have no clue. But it is going to be ok. I will be ok. As long as I have my family beside me to continue my walk I know I will be taken care of.

Sometimes things happen for a reason that you know of. Sometimes it makes no sense. I have been at this fork in the road for so long now, on my knees asking God which way to go. Finally He has showed me what is the right path for me. He has showed me that is not going to be easy or fun but when I get to the end of it, I will be happier.


I will be happier. I have faith and trust in that. I will be happy.